tulips
charcoal on paper
2008
a.k.a. "the student gallery" at the university of wisconsin--stout
this piece deals with my identity. i explored myself, who i am, why i am. i am a shy person, which is addressed visually and physically. my work is on a small scale so it evokes a sense of intimacy. the work will draw the viewer in, only if he/she wants to be drawn in. each piece addresses different aspects of my life including fears, hobbies and family. the imagery in each drawing is hidden. this allows the viewer to take on his/her own meaning, but the drawing will always mean what it means to me. the drawings have a sort of layered effect to them and this is to show not only depth but it signifies the layers of life and memory. this piece will hopefully evoke memories and meanings to the viewer and he/she can take on their own interpretation when viewing.
I went into this assignment with the intention to combine human and animals to create a narrative. I used inks to stain the paper, and used ink and gouache to create the characters.
personality can be represented in a person in many ways. i see personality in colors and images. each of these columns illustrate someone in my life that has been affected by my decision to meet my birth parents. each of these people were affected in different ways and it shows through them in varying colors. the colors represent the auras that surround them. some of the images come from memories but most are objects that represent the individual person.
my piece was inspired by my personal abstract visual thoughts of how my mind and memory mights store, remember, misremember and recollect information and memories that i have experienced over my lifetime. it is based off the fact that the scientific community knows so much about our minds and memory currently; however, at the same time they also are learning about how the human mind, brain and memory work. the abstract line-work and colors were used to visually describe how i see my mind working while trying to recollect information, a past memory and also the mystery of why some information can be burned into my memory permanently for no significant reason, and contrast to that how easily and often my mind fails to recollect or store important memories or information as well, no matter how hard i try to remember.
My series of drawings is based on the concept of my memory. The primary focus is on my artistic process rather than the outcome of the drawings. I allowed memories to enter and exit my mind and kept a drawing tool constantly moving and documenting my thoughts. The memories are big and small, vivid and intangible, childlike and sophisticated. I find great significance in the ability of memory to shape my sense of self. Thus, each drawing depicts a moment of my life I find to be highly significant to my personality.
Sense of place is articulated in many ways throughout the drawings. While skylines and horizons convey a literal setting, many of the figurative elements express a sense of place more personal to myself than to the viewer. I include expressive figurative drawings taken from past sketchbooks because these drawings, more so than any photo, bring back a flood of emotions. I remember exactly where I was, who I was near, and what my feelings were that lead to those sketches. This element of emotion is what I intend to surface in all my pieces.
The frames, and layout of the frames, embody the mapping aspect of my memory.
I utilize a variety of materials through the drawings. All work is on paper, some of which is made for charcoal and watercolor mediums, and some of which are found paintings or drawings from my childhood. The images are rendered in various dry mediums and gouache.
my work is about history and process. this piece shows the process of how people work together as a group or in a family. my inspiration for this piece was the closeness of my sisters and i, through hard times as well as good.